Sometimes, I wonder why life is so difficult.

Sometimes, I smile when I want to cry.

Sometimes, I wish I never heard the word, “autism.”

Sometimes, I wish I was bored.

Sometimes, I wish my children didn’t have to struggle so much.

Sometimes, I want to crawl under a rock and never come out.

Sometimes, I feel helpless.

Sometimes just getting to the next day is a struggle.

Sometimes, I am overwhelmed.

Sometimes, I feel alone.

Sometimes, I wonder, “What if?”

I have lots of these feelings and many, many more. As I am sure that many of you do who are dealing with children on the autism spectrum or any other unique needs.

BUT, I know I am not alone.

When I have these feelings, I cry out to God and I know that He is there for me. I know He holds my hand and is by my side each and every single moment.

I know there is a purpose to what I am going through and although I may not see it or know what it is, God does.

God is there through all of it. He sees my frustration, my tears, my moments of weakness and He carries me through. When I am weak, He is my strength and my source of calm. I know all I need to do is pray to Him and ask Him for help. Even though some days are tough, I can always be assured of His presence.

When I look back at certain moments wondering how I was going to make it, I know, God was there. He put people in my life to help me. He made it possible for me to carry on and thrive. Even when I felt I had nothing left to give, He made it possible for me to get to the next step, the next day.

If you have a child with autism or any other special needs, it’s hard. I know your world and it’s not the same as others. I see the pain on your face and so does God. This is to remind you that God is here for you!

God will not only listen, but He will comfort you. All you need to do is ask.

I love Isaiah 41:10.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

No matter what your circumstances may be, please remember that God is here for YOU!

Shelly Wedge

Exceptional Family Ministry Coordinator

Amberlea Church